Trains

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The trains don’t stop here anymore
but I can see them passing through,
and sometimes in the winter
I step onto the tracks, into the slipstream
of one that has hurried past
to feel the warmth it leaves behind,
the scent of the people, the coffee and the oil,
listen to the sound of the wheels fading
down the valley and into the distance,
then I just stand there and let the peace
envelop me again.

The Breeze

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When the trees started growing
the first thing the stars did
was to teach the leaves to sing,
how be like them, how to be in harmony,
together and apart.

The stars knew that one day
their brothers and sisters
would want to visit the earth,
but they worried that when they did
the sheer beauty, the power and drama of life
might cause them to forget where they came from,
and this is what happened.

 

So now they send the breeze
to whisper in the leaves
and remind us
who we are.

Don’t

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Don’t tell me,
don’t talk to me,
don’t stand in my way.

You think I don’t know
that even on a good day
I am morally ambiguous?
That’s because I need to see,
to find out for myself what is
and what is not.

Don’t ask me to
agree with your views,
believe in one thing,
behave in one way
or join your gang.
I can’t, I won’t,
it’s not for me.

I don’t believe that God
favours Clubs or Churches,
or Temples or Synagogues anyway,
or lives in signs or statues either.
I believe God is in the wild places
the difficult places, the places
where His Light is needed.

And the most difficult place I know
is my own heart, a heart that trembles
with fear and anticipation
in the face of what life brings.

Turning

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The sky is clear and dark,
the air is cool and I am here,
waiting in the garden
for the earth to turn.

Waiting for the light of the sun
to creep across the oceans,
over the farms and the fields
and through the buildings of this city,
waiting for it to turn the clouds pink
and fill the tree above me
with golden light.

I know of no other thing
that I can rely on as much
as the turning of the world.

Healing

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As usual I woke up
feeling sad this morning,
now I am in the garden,
it’s 5.30am, dark, windy and balmy,
and I have thirty delicious
minutes all to myself,
here in nature, here with God,
the only one who knows me
well enough to heal me.

But it’s not really a healing is it?
It’s just that in the sound of the wind
rushing through trees and in the stillness beneath it,
I remember, just for a few moments, who I am.

Not the wounded man, broken by life,
caught between the impossible and the implacable,
depressed and angry at the wrongs meted out to him
and waiting for the sweet release of death,
but a man for whom life and death are unimportant
because they are secondary to love.

Flight

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A family of pigeons
have made their home on our roof.
I watch them from the garden
as they fly off in great arcs and return.
Somewhere deep down inside
I know how to do that, how to fly.
I don’t mean that I can imagine it,
I mean that I remember it,
it’s stored somewhere
deep in the marrow of my bones;
the shape of my wings,
how it feels to be lifted by the air,
how to bank, turn and stall.
I know beyond doubt,
I once had a body
that could fly.

Weather Report

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Yesterday was hot,
in the evening the sunset
was the most spectacular
I have ever seen around here
and this morning the dawn was beautiful.
They say that today is going to be even hotter.
Inside my breathing is slow and easy
and the ocean is calm.
The breeze doesn’t stop at my face,
it moves through me and on to a shoreline far away.
I am in a London garden, watching gulls fly overhead
but my soul, my soul is lost at sea, waiting for night to fall
so it can navigate by the stars.